MY FATHER...the REAL one...

He's gone. He passed away last week and I never got to hug him not once in my whole life...He was 75, a marine, a grandpa, a great grandpa.... and a dad....I never got to love him and I never got to feel the love and protection a father gives his children. All I wanted was to love him.

I do EVP sessions and I have already had one with him. He says back then it would have been alot of TROUBLE if it was found out about me. I was created out of LOVE and it seems both he and my mother lived in FEAR of being found out .

The words in caps are the words that came from him after I asked the questions. I asked why he wasn't there for me, then I asked if I was the product of a fling or if there were feelings involved, and finally I wanted to know if his family knew about me...my grandparents......

I don't think people realize the damage they do to a person from dishonesty...the stigma put on a "throw away person"...the "dirty lil secrete"...growing up without a parent or parents and having to watch all the other people around with their families and the throw away doesn't have one. Don't ever tell your kid the other parent doesn't want them. It totally fucks them up for life! If you don't want your kid and don't love them...GIVE THEM TO SOMEONE WHO REALLY DOES! It's better than not having anyone at all.