I guess my list of wants in life is pretty short...because after so many disappointments I numbed out inside. Why even bother wanting...anything...Stop wanting and I won't have to feel what comes after I never get it. Then all that's left is to see others being happy with the same things I wanted in my life.
Did I mention these things I wish I had cannot be bought in a store or anywhere for that matter. It seems this is a pattern in my life and I can't find a way to stop it. My little family is changing now. My sons have messed some things up in their lives as well as mine.
My sons and I have always been open and honest with each other but it seems lately one of them has been keeping important life decisions from me and doing things that are going to affect him down the road. These things have also affected me...not in a good way either.
The simple things little girls like...slumber parties, dolls, pretty dresses, and the primpey things...make up, hair bows and ribbons, pretty shoes, ect...the things that help a little girl become a lady as she grows up..these things I didn't have yet my sister did, right in front of my face!
I've waited knowing someday I will have a little girl to do that stuff for like I never had. I'll have a special lil girl to lift up and teach that she can do what she wants to in her life, be anything she wants, no hold backs at all. Tell her all about the women in her family thru the generations which were all very physically beautiful women.
Well, she was born!!!...Aug 12th 2016..Brooklyn Marie....then she was given away behind my back....
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