The older I become

 My son told me tonight that I have a negative outlook on everything. He says I only noticed the negative and that's what I tend to comment on. Truth?

I used to be like most other people and was so busy with life that I didn't notice what was really going on. Once your eyes have been opened it's hard to close them and be blind again. I'm watching the world spiral down. Sometimes I say things to people and then find out later that these very things I say are spoken in the Bible. I believe in Jesus with all my heart but the truth is I've never read the Bible I only speak on the things I feel and know and I can't tell you how I know them. We are all at present time in a very sad State of affairs. This situation is something we seem to have no control over. ... Or so we think. If the citizens of the entire world would grow some backbone all band together and stand up against the tyrants who are running these different countries all over the world we would all live a lot better. Why do we struggle and suffer while they sit on a throne when they're nothing different than we are? We are all here to have The human experience we are All souls in organic bodies that one day will perish yet our souls will live on our ball of energy souls that is what we are. We will get to look back and see the effect that we had on all of those around us and on the entire world. This is what is known as the Life review. Why do we have to wait and go through our life review before we realize what the hell is going on and what we're doing to this world. Why can't we wake up now and make changes now and make this a wonderful place for generations to come instead of being at each other's throats in a fight for power and glory and riches. One must we think that we're better than the person next to us because we have more than they have? People don't seem to realize or understand that this is the test this is why we are here to see how we handle this situation and if we take our neighbor by the hand and help them along the way when they need it or if we turn our back on them just what kind of souls are we anyway? We can change everything all of us together.

This is why I only see the negative because no one out there will get up off their ass and try to do anything about the situation going on all around the world. Not just one individual but all of us as a collective we can make all the necessary changes. 

I don't see that happening or even beginning to happen. What I see is the words that are supposedly in the Bible so I've been told are seemingly coming true. The prospects of going home or looking better and better because after all none of us are from here anyway. This was all a test you didn't know that did you and you'll be tested again after you get home eventually you'll get sent back here I don't know who you'll be the next time you come but you won't be who you are now sure you'll have the same soul but you'll be a completely different person in a completely different body and you won't remember anything that you did in your last lifetime but you will carry over some of the characteristics of the person that you were this time around you will take that into the next life with you. I always have something to say about fat people I don't understand why they stuck their faces and get like that and then wear tight clothing so you can count their fat rolls how embarrassing. So now you watch when I come back in my next life I'll be a fat person. Hopefully the part of me that I carry over into my next life will be smart enough to go on a diet and lose that weight and not be fat. 

I didn't have an easy life if you've read any of my other posts I don't even remember some of the things that I told everyone about in those posts I don't even know who everyone is or if anyone reads this stuff. I was an extremely abused child so it's hard for me to see the positive in things however before I was enlightened and started paying attention to what was going on around me I was a loof like everyone else I was a young girl foot loose and fancy free traveling around running from my problems running from myself running from my family I was just running. Part of me is glad that I did that because I had a lot of experiences and met a lot of very interesting people including Hollywood movie stars that part was cool but they're no different than you and I all the only difference is that they have a lot of money the places that they sleep are more expensive beds than ours you know and the only one that puts a value on that stuff is us that doesn't mean that it really is more valuable something is only as valuable as the value you put into it. I'm not really a negative person my heart is full of love I'm just someone that's waiting for the positive to start happening I need to see something substantial and I'm not seeing it yet and as the years go on things seem to keep going even more downhill I'm very concerned. If I can't make any kind of change or make any kind of difference in this lifetime while I'm here I'll see if I can't make a difference when I leave my body. I seem to have a lot of knowledge on such matters so if anyone out there ever wants to know anything all you have to do is ask me and I'll tell you the best that I can.